I miss my Daddy!

If Daddy were here, he'd play ball with me.My jumperoo isn't as much fun without my Daddy here to make the monkey sounds!I just don't understand, where's he gone?I can't get comfortable in my crib without Daddy.The big bed feels empty without Daddy.Grandma tried to make me happy last night before bed. She's not Daddy.Mama took me to visit Grandma at work today to try to make me forget about missing Daddy. She even let me chew on her sunglasses. I still couldn't forget.Grandpa gave me his keys to suck on but this didn't work.Grandpa also tried to tickle me and make me laugh.This didn't work either.Mama offered me a beer. I don't like beer.The only thing that will work??? Having my Daddy back. Come home soon, Daddy!!!

Big, healthy boy!

Dori has outgrown his old diapers (size 6-12 months, 15-20lbs) but his new ones (size 12-18 months, 20-30lbs) are too big. What to do? I guess we'll just let them be a bit big. I surely don't want to put him in disposables for the next month or two until he grows into them. And there's no way I can stuff him into the old ones...I had to put him in disposables the past couple days anyway until the new diaper covers arrived because the old ones were that tight on him! You know what also sucks? Now his pants don't fit with the new diapers! And he's already in 9-12 month old size pants!!! Did you know he's now over 20 pounds and 28 inches long??? And that's all breastmilk, baby!!! It does make me very proud that I have nourished this boy so well. Do you want to know something super weird??? I am 61 inches tall. Dori is almost half my height!!! He is so healthy. Of course, I get comments from people who think he is too big or that I must be feeding him too much. There always seems to be a critic lurking when there's a new mom nearby! I love my baby boy and think he is perfect. How could anyone think he was fat??? It shows me how OBSESSED this country is with weight. He is not even 6 months old, he is supposed to have baby fat, yet people are already talking to me about reducing his food intake and increasing his exercise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, enough whining about that for now.

We will introduce solid food when he is 6 months old (and James has returned). We gave up on the rice cereal after a couple weeks because it wasn't extending his sleep and he seemed to lose interest in it after a couple days. I was happy anyway, because some research has shown that exclusively breastfeeding a baby for the first 6 months can diminish his chances of developing asthma or allergies, both of which run on both sides of Dorian's family. Plus, I gotta tell you, for all my complaining about being tied down to Dorian, it sure is easy to just whip my boobs out and feed him anywhere, you know? I'm not looking forward to all the diligent shopping for organic food, washing, chopping, blending and heating. I absolutely hate cooking; preparing perfectly chosen, washed, blended, heated food for a baby? Even worse, I imagine. Ugh.

Week-end Update

Dorian has been helping me work this week-end - sitting in his high chair and playing quietly next to my "office." He has been rolling over like crazy! I put him to bed last night in his crib - on his back in the middle of it. He was awake and talking to himself. Several minutes later I heard screaming. I went into his room, and he had somehow managed to roll over onto his stomach perpendicularly in the crib (head and feet against the side rails, not head and foot of the bed). He was stuck! He has done the same thing on his play mat and even rolls off it now. I think it's time to break out the playpen! He had lunch with his Grandma and Gamma (what my Grandma wants to be called) and was the little charmer he always is. He let Stella, my parents' dog, lick his face. He played. He took a bath, after pooping all over himself. I left him on the changing table (strapped in, of course) to air out a bit and look at his hanging mobile. I came back a few minutes later and he had had a massive poop. It was everywhere! Feet, legs, back, hands - luckily not face or hair (or my pristine walls). Little monster. He took a long nap yesterday and has been napping for 45 minutes on average, 2-3 times a day. Much better than 20-30 minutes, 1-2 times a day! He still wakes up every 2 hours at night, but he does not feed every time! This is progress. I just cuddle him or rock him and he goes back to sleep. Anyway, I can't be bothered to write captions and I really need to do some work so here are the best of the pictures from the past two days...

A thrilling post...

Little carseat.
Big carseat.
Infant carseat.
Big boy carseat!
Exciting stuff, I told you.

We have a rolling baby!

Dorian is rolling over!!! Every time I put him on his stomach, he rolls onto his back almost immediately. He's been telling us for months he hates tummy time...now he can actually get out of it! Having said that, he did roll over onto his stomach once today!We visited my Grandma - she got a kick out of Dorian knowing how to use a cup already (there wasn't anything in it).All her friends loved seeing Dorian. We're going to try to visit more often because I realized just how much it makes their day.We visited a friend in San Francisco who has a piano. Dori loves to play the piano. James has been teaching him for months.Mom, do I have to play this piece AGAIN???Dori loves bathtime and misses his daddy. James and Dori have so much fun during bathtime. Somehow I can't create the same splashing games Daddy does! Loads of bathtime pictures for Dori's daddy...


We went to Costco to buy Dori a new car seat - he is only the 2nd baby in my new mom's group to outgrow his infant seat (and remember, he's the youngest)! Pics of him in both carseats to follow in the next couple days. Dori loves riding in the shopping carts the big boy way now.How am I going to get through all that food with James gone? Maybe the big block of cheese won't disappear in 2 days like it normally does!Thumbs up for the Oakland A's! I couldn't resist buying this hat.

Dorian's Day in Pictures